Day 3
1st Oct 2009
Sunny
Yesterday it was Ridz's birthday celebration. We went to Vivo City and Marina Square. ZY and me sure do have memories there. Especially, Vivo City. I was thinking about him the whole time at the same time I was trying not to affect the rest's mood. In the movie theater, I didn't know why flash backs of me and him just keep flashing through my mind. I tried to sleep during the ads but I failed. However, I managed to fall asleep at the beginning of the show. The places we went yesterday was the places that me and him went the other time. Managed to saw a cute dog at Pet Safari this time though. I saw the hamsters, I kinda regret not buying them the other time. Cause I always wanted some living thing which is own by us but yeah, now I am crossing my fingers for a second chance. Perhaps, if I am lucky enough to get that second chance, I would buy them. To Marina, I thought of him too. I still remember people from the wedding shop approaching us about getting married. I still remember he told me that day we are meant to be. Sigh. I tried to hold back my tears and calm down so that I can have my dinner. Haven't been eating much lately. Since I am with my friends, I tried to eat as much as I could cause I know when I am all alone again. I would be moodless for meals again. The whole day I was thinking, what is ZY doing? Have he eaten his lunch/dinner? Is he bored while his friends are at camp? Is he dota-ing? Who does he goes to when he is bored? Who accompany did he found? Who is that lucky girl or guy? Did he flirt with any girls or did any girls flirt him? Is he with any girls in a very close term now? In his heart, does he still loves me? Have he given up totally on me? Is everything alright for him at home? and many many more. He said he doesnt want to talk about this. Maybe he still needs more time. He said he wished his girlfriend was Chang Zai Xin. In my heart, I am just like her. I didn't do anything that would hurt you. I love you wholeheartedly like how she love Alfred. Everything I did, I had your interest. Maybe I am not as sweet as her but if I am given a second chance, I would be even more sweeter than before. Will this nightmare end or will it last for a lifetime?
I am faithfully waiting for you.
I didnt go around and flirt.
Cause I really want you back in my life.
