Back to my life with emo posts.
Happiness are always short lived for me, I guessed?
Sigh.
Haters must be belly deee happy now.
Cause they are seeing me in misery.
I wish I can never see the world anymore.
I just hate this world so much.
Why am I always the one going through misery.
Three blows in a year.
Something great that I've achieved uh?
When you're gone by Avril Lavigne just express my feelings totally.
I hate to zi bao zi qi always.
I know my parents are hurt seeing me in this state.
BUT
I just can't control myself.
I just feel like isolating myself in the room.
I am seriously still clueless about what is happening.
I am sure it is more than the eyes meets.
O levels seems so far away.
I wish it was just like tmr?
I need an escape so badly.
Maybe alcohol is a good choice yeah?
Better than being childish, slitting my wrist or drowning myself into sleep.
I just dont want to loose you.
Do you know how important you are to me?
You want me to mug for my O's.
I will.
Just give me a day to get wasted after that I will be fine.
I will mug for O's.
And wait for that very day to arrive.
Please tell me everything is not a show, it's reality, we still have a glimmer of hope.
Sigh.
How could this happened to me?
I swear upon my whole family.
To all my readers, stalkers or passer bys.
I ain't that C_E_P.
Believe it or not.
I never agree on having any _E_U_A_ activities with any guys.
I think I got to make myself clear.
Cause I believe such stalkers or kaypohs or haters will read my blog eventually.
And I want to get this fact into your brains.
I AM INNOCENT!
I DONT KNOW WHY, HOW AND WHO STARTED THE RUMORS.
BUT
MY CONSCIENCE IS FUCKING CLEAR.
Cause of that ass I've lost a best friend and a lover.
I can't afford to loose another lover cause of this ass!
You people will never feel me.
Yes, I am a hot topic but you all gossip w/o putting yourselves into my shoes.
Thankyouverymuchforthatyoupeople.
I really wish to know the awful truth soon.
Why is it the minutes feel like hours, hours feel like days, days feel like months, months feel like years when I am alone?
I shall go and force myself to eat something before I see that sad sad face on my parents face.
P/S:
I HATE LIFE NOW.
