You keep comparing me with all those super nerd geeks.
I am totally different from them but for you, I had to be someone that I am not.
You jolly well know that I love going out to chill with my friends
BUT
You still want to keep me at home like some pet dog.
I know, you meant well for my own being.
O levels are around the corner and this is my second time.
BUT
I am still a human being and I need to breathe.
You want me to call you up everyday and spend time with you.
Sometimes, I am just too busy with my own stuff and I admit that I don't have this habit.
You are in my heart and I don't think there's a need to express my love care and concern to you like everyday?
You tell me which daughter don't love their mother.
AND
You still bear that stupid grudge against me.
Till today, you really don't understand me.
What I told him was what I thought of you.
I didn't bullshit or whatsoever.
Who is the real victim of that matter?
It was actually ME not you!
ME okay?
For that period of time when I broke up with JH,
I swear,
I really thought you are not as bad as what I thought you were.
BUT
Once after I recovered from the break up,
You are back to the usual you.
So what is the difference?
This cycle will never end.
I am 18 already and I really can't stand the feeling of being tied up.
I want to be who I am.
The Sheena you are seeing every day is not the REAL Sheena.
I swear, if this continues, after O levels, I will find some job and move to somewhere else.
I really HATE to have conflicts with you
and
I really HATE the fact you always hurt me with those harsh comments.
You are really damm hard to please.
I don't know how much longer can I hold on.
At times, I really wish I could just run away from this home.
Whatever I do, it is always never enough for you.
You said I never once put myself into your shoes.
I swear, I did.
It is you, who never once put YOURSELF into MY shoes.
Bruised and battered by everything.
